Monday, January 17, 2011

Weigh-In Days And Mondays Always Get Me Down

I decided to stop weighing in every morning like I did for most of last year, and just weigh myself on Mondays. Maybe Monday isn't the right day, since they're depressing enough already without the added fuel.

Anyway, I weighed myself this morning, and despite jogging at least four days a week for the past two weeks, I'm still gaining weight. It's frustrating enought to cause me to really want to quit. Jogging isn't easy for a fatass like me. My legs and back are always screaming in pain. I find myself having to constantly stretch out my calves because they ache so damned much. And to be dealing with all of that, and still gaining weight, it's really, f***ing depressing.

What's weird about the backward momentum is that up until I stepped on that scale, I was feeling pretty good about myself and the progress I had managed to make. I'm getting to the point where I don't feel good if I don't run. I think the running helps relieve the stress and fights my constant tendency towards mopiness. Because of all that, I think I'll keep at it.

I guess I just have to stop eating so damned much. Apparently, I can't outrun myself, but I sure can out eat myself. But my stomach is grumbling right now as I type this. Ugh.


  1. Have you considered that you may have gained a little muscle? Muscle weighs twice as much as fat.

    If I may be really nosy - your goal at this point should be inch-loss, not weight loss. Many people, especially men, gain weight when they get in shape, but they look smaller, because muscle is more compact than fat, even though it weighs more.

    You're kind of approaching this like a woman from the 70's or 80's, when everyone thought it was all about diet and aerobic exercise. Those women were terrified of "bulking up" from weights or resistance exercise. That's been debunked. You won't look like you're on steroids unless you take steroids. Everyone, including women, needs exercise that builds muscle. Among other things, muscle burns calories while at rest. It keeps you from putting on fat again.

    But it does weigh more.

    You're a big guy. You could be totally *built.* Why aren't you lifting weights?

  2. I try tell myself that I must have gained muscle, but it just rings hollow. The fact that I can't fit into my clothes very well throws a wrench into the gaining of muscle over fat thing, I think. My pants are fitting me worse every day.

    And lifting weights has always been part of my plan. It's just the part that I haven't started implementing yet. I understand the whole difference between muscle and fat, and in an earlier post I mentioned that I was not going for dieting so much as exercise this time around for that very reason. If I want my body to burn up all the fuel I put into it, then I probably need to get a bigger motor in there.

    I suppose I can step up (or more like start up) the weight lifting too.

  3. You can do it Big!

    I'm just saying :)

  4. Aw, I didn't mean to go into lecture mode. :-z If it helps, you're a good looking guy, as is. I never lose weight when I'm trying to. It's always when I'm working really hard to do something else that I notice, "Oh, yeah, I seem to have dropped 10 pounds. Huh."